TOO MUCH CAKE!

Again real quickly......

I feel the necessity (?) to share my horrendous diet over the past week. I think I need it to do this as a clear so that I can see it, admit it, and change it. I know it's been an emotional eating binge and I'm having a hard time coming down from it but I think I've started....YEAH!!! I think sharing this with you will help in letting go (I'm still working on letting God). Thank you Jarron for the spiritual talk the other night.

This covers the past 11 days: A full pan of thick (about 2"s) homemade cream cheese brownies LOADED with chocolate chips, a full pan of homemade cornbread (again about 2" thick and loaded with spices and onions), A whole unopened bag of the Gianatti's (?) chocolate squares with caramel inside, the rest of the triscuit crackers, the rest of some kind of weird crisp, a container of cottage cheese, about a pound and a half of green grapes, several spinach salads with dried cranberries, walnuts, tomatoes and broccoli, a big pot of steamed veggies with chicken (all gone) big pan of rice (some eaten with sugar, cinnamon and cream......reminded me of my childhood), made some chicken soup (actually still have some left) about 2 or 3 bottles (I think just 2) of wine, about 5 vodka martini's, a big bag of Flaming Hot Jays potato chips, a big bag of Salt and Vinegar Jays potato chips, a pound bag of M&M's, and a full bag of Garlic Bagel Chips. Oh, I forgot (I'm sure I forgot more too but....) a friend, downline made Lasagna and we had a working dinner with Lasagna, Cinnamon bread (they didn't know it was cinnamon when they got it....LOL) and salad.

Ewuuee.....I don't think I feel so good. I didn't leave the house hardly at all, unless I absolutely had to. I am now letting go of the anger, hurt and sadness and am ready to make a change. I know it won't happen all at once (and I know it could, I just haven't figured that out yet) but I do feel like I've turned a corner.

Right now, instead of seeing what else there is to eat. I'm going to go swimming. That's something I used to do as a kid all the time and loved it. I haven't done that in years but I don't think my body could take my workout right now but I need to do something. Keep your fingers crossed that I don't sink!

You guys are great and I hope I don't sound like I'm whining......really just clearing and moving on. Thanks for letting me bend your ear.

Love ya,

Deserving, Trusting, Strong, Forgiving Rhonda